So I am back at it, I’ve been gone for a month but believe me when I say that it was for important things.
I’m going to try to be more mindful in my life. I feel like that is a pretty “in” phrase going around, or I’m just late to the party. Anyway, I get pretty caught up in things. I struggle quite a bit with jealousy and I think it is largely in part that I never take things in for what they are. I eat food without appreciating the taste, I watch shows just to get to the next episode and I go to events in anticipation of when they will end. I rarely stop and be present in the moment, it’s usually either worrying about the future or regretting the past.
Mindfulness is a nice practice to try and connect to people, places and things around you (the basic nouns, you know). In action, I want to make a list of the things I am grateful for each day. I want to bounce a negative experience into something positive. I’m also going to try meditation.
Meditation sounds like such a hippy thing to me, and for some reason hippy things have a bad rap to them? Not sure why, because hippies cared about literally nothing other than peace and love which aren’t bad qualities to be obsessed about as a group. Maybe some people think they’re too soft but they did introduce some good things and I hope meditation is one of them for me.
It will probably only be a few minutes a day, but the more practice maybe the longer I’ll be able to focus and can go for a longer time. I don’t imagine myself in robes or anything, but something accessible to anyone who wants to try. There is nothing wrong in setting time in the day to check in with yourself and give your brain a rest. I’m actually super excited to give it a shot so maybe I can do things one at a time instead of panicking over 20 items simultaneously.
I may post the list of things I’m grateful for, may not, but expect an update soon!